Tomato Seed

The weird thing about this blog is that either people who I'm really close to read it or people who I haven't actually met in real life read it.  I know my readership has probably plunged since I don't update it as often these days, but to be honest, I don't really know for sure who (still) reads it.

Anyway, it's weird because I've had this blog for so long...over ten years, since before I graduated from undergrad.  Now here I am, a few degrees, a few moves and a husband later, and it still functions as a creative outlet of sorts.  So, dear reader, if you're still here, whether you know me personally or not, you have been with me through a lot.  So, although I don't want to release this info to the general public yet, I don't feel like I'm releasing it to the general public by writing about it on my blog.

Yesterday was P's and my second anniversary.  And we got a special anniversary present.  Yes, it finally happened, after all of my (unnecessary) agonizing over it.  We're having a baby.

I downloaded a pregnancy app, you know, the ones that compare the size of the baby to various edible items.  And yesterday, it said that our baby was the size of a tomato seed.

It doesn't feel real.  It's something I've wanted for a while, and now that it's a reality, I don't know how to take it.  We're excited, for sure, but at the same time, it hasn't quite sunken in yet.  I pray that God will continue to lead us and guide us, as He always has.  I've always struggled with trusting Him in various areas of my life.  But bringing a new life into the world?  That's on a whole other plane.  I know that this experience will cause me to rely on Him like I never have before.