Okay, so I made it through today despite my lethargy last night. I got done what I had to get done, and I still have time to get done what I didn't get done.
There are things that are up in the air right now. I was informed of the possibility of some things today that, frankly, sort of blew my mind. Things I never imagined would be even a remote possibility. It's exciting and frightening and exhilarating and overwhelming.
I can't divulge right now because it's still up in the air. But I will know in a couple of weeks.
Regardless of the outcome, I know that God is showing me favor. He is opening doors for me that no one but He could open. And it is such a wonderful feeling to know that I have nothing to worry about. Absolutely nothing. He is 100% in control.
But I have to be honest and say I am scared. I'm scared of being disappointed if it doesn't work out, and I'm scared of being in over my head if it does. I feel like I'm in this swirling vortex of possibility and I'm being caught up in it, giddy with expectation yet terrified at the prospect of change, once again.
Oh, I don't know. I don't know. I don't know about a variety of things right now, to be honest. But it's a good I don't know. I'll have my answers soon enough.
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