Assistant Coach

I was having a miserable time.

I had been spending a lot of time nervously licking my lips, wringing my hands, weathering stomach pit knots, sobbing, moping, wallowing, having more breakouts than usual, and mulling things over in my mind to the point of absurdity. Waking up in the morning had become a chore I longed to avoid. It was a combination of things: I had allowed my job at the time to make me feel like a weak, unappreciated failure; I couldn't stop the barrage of mental self-scourging for ever-present regrets which followed me like ghosts; and I felt myself inching closer to that whirlpool of self-obsession and destruction, that same spiral that I already knew would leave me with nothing but vertigo.

I thank God He gave me the wherewithal to make some changes. I had a teary breakup from my abusive boyfriend of a job. I had a shaft-of-light revelation to apply to a PhD program. But still, I needed to do more things outside of myself. Forget about me and my weepy me world. Get involved in something positive and productive. That's why I agreed to be an assistant Junior Bible Quizzing coach.

I am so glad I did. It's just amazing how far these kids have come. I'm so proud of them. We were not the best team, but I'm simply satisfied that the kids had fun learning the Word of God. It's truly been a bright spot for me. Today was the last tournament, and it's something I'll miss being a part of.