First Conference Presentation as a Mrs.

I guess there's a first time for everything.

I'm in a major metropolitan city (where the pope just left from) for a conference from now until Sunday.  It hit me that this is the first time I've air traveled and will have conference presented under my new name.

Like, my first boarding pass as a Mrs. My first conference introduction as a Mrs.

I've decided to use my maiden name as my middle name professionally.  So, on my CV and papers and publications and whatnot, I'll be Firstname Maidenname Marriedname.  I like how it flows, truth be told.  I still haven't gotten any funny looks or comments about my new last name, though.  It absolutely screams Irishness.  Girl, how you get a St. Patrick's Day soundin name like that?

Can I admit something?  I am scared, I am uncomfortable, I feel inadequate, I feel underprepared, and I feel overwhelmed.  I can't explain how badly I want to stop feeling this way.  Everything seems to be screaming at me, You aren't ready!  You aren't good enough!  You're not going to finish in time!

I honestly don't know how I'm going to do it.  I don't know how this is going to happen.  There's more that I don't know than I do know at this point.  But what else can I do but keep putting one foot in front of the other?