God really is very awesome. At our special service tonight, a friend that I invited received the infilling of the Holy Ghost for the first time. It was amazing. There was no one else around us, just the two of us praying together, and it happened so simply. God can use anyone to do anything. People just have to be willing to be used.
Guy 2 called tonight. I'll start by saying this: When you're a person like me who can't hide anything emotionally, it makes you extremely vulnerable. On one hand, it can be good because in being transparent, you're honest, and on the whole, you have a lot less pent up mess to deal with. On the other hand, it can be bad because you're a stinking open book to anyone who cares to read. You're exposed 24/7, and that is not the most comfortable feeling. To say the least. But anyway, no tears this time. Something still has to change, and right now there's a possibility that it may. Regardless of how things turn out, I have to realize that it's not about me. It has zero to do with me. It's something only God can handle, so I have to be willing to leave it in His hands. And I have to be willing to live with the outcome, even if it's not what I want. Because it's not about me.
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that's an open, honest assessment that it's not about you - you're not about "missionary dating" if I remember correctly... and remember you don't want a "carbon copy" of what or whom God may have for you -just a little chicken soup for your soul
In the words of Michael Jackson..."You are not alone.." :)
I realize that more and more every day, how much it's not about me! God is good. I love you.
kwoya
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